I Saw The Light

Where this all begins. 

Occasionally, a moment strikes you, and the perfection of that understanding just cannot be ignored.

I’m a very particular kind of Gamer: hate handhelds, never understood consoles, love getting lost in turn-built Godsims, have an unhealthy obsession with one MMO. But what makes me most unique of all is that I’m 48 and a woman. LOOK HETEROSEXUALS I’M NOT USING MY BODY TO ADVERTISE THIS POST and although I enjoy looking at beautiful naked forms as much as the next person, this is not why I say what I am at outset. I’ve not arrived in your browser to flaunt my female privilege at you, or indeed anyone else, and if I’m fucking awful at a game it’s because I’m just bad, not because I’m a woman. So once you get that pile of issues out of the way, we can proceed to the matter in hand.

Gaming’s in a really interesting place right now, and I think more people should be considering the possibilities that are on offer in the years that follow. I’m talking about lovely words like Transmedia and Virtual Reality which encompass right now a lot of very disparate subjects and areas, and which don’t really have anyone pointing out their issues or shortcomings. Right now, mostly, people get excited, and that often means there’s no real thought going into the opinions that get tossed about. However, what bothers me more is the fact that the views of the ordinary person often simply doesn’t get considered in all of this. Yeah, gaming ‘journalists’ and ‘commentators’ are ten a penny these days, every nerd with a console can do that. But where’s the actual thought and consideration?

One of VERY MANY.

Mostly, everybody wants to make money from the gravy train that Gaming is becoming, especially as eSports moves more into the mainstream. Except, I’ll be honest, I don’t give a flying fuck about gaming as competition. Gaming as immersion however is far more interesting, and although it may give people the screaming abdabs and create visions of dystopian futures? Lots of people will be giving this side of computer-generated entertainment a lot more interest in the years that follow including, I suspect, the Pornography industry. And that’s where traditional gaming media will throw up their hands in disgust and walk away, but really they shouldn’t. Because eSports pales into insignificance when held up next to pornography, and you can bet VR is going to exploited there with transmedia as soon as is conceivably possible.

It would take a brave woman to try and straddle all those areas simultaneously AND not get her tits out for the lads, right?

I can joke about the world I live in until I’m blue in the face, but the prejudices are there, and they never go away. It’s the same with attitudes and expectations when you throw yourself into the public spotlight and I’ve learnt more about in the last year than probably the previous twenty combined. The thing is that the default mode of communication now isn’t the written word, it’s You Tube or Twitch, and these places are horrible, viscous and impersonal spaces where people simply do not listen. I know I need to set myself out on a journey in those spaces, but the fact remains that my words are the best way now to get a point across, and as I learn to wield them better with every passing day, that task becomes ever easier. Plus, with words you’re pushing your reader to make an effort whereas with visuals, you can easily switch off. So, here I am, starting a new path with one goal: write about gaming in a way nobody else can manage, because nobody else is you.




I mean, seriously, how hard can it be?