When I started this journey into organised content, there would often be weeks where half (or more) of what was planned simply never came to fruition. Often it would be apathy that won the day, or I’d simply not find the ability within me to do on Thursday what had been so brilliant to consider on Sunday. Now, I refuse to finish a weekday evening without at least 60% of the scheduled content complete. That means that until this post is finished, I’m not off the clock. Suddenly, routine and planning have become as important as the content itself. This is because of a promise I made before my Patreon started.
I’ve struggled over the years with consistency and commitment. Of course, the only person who loses out ultimately from the shortcomings is me, but when I started asking people to pay me to work, that wasn’t good enough. I have a responsibility if individuals turn up and hand over cash to be not only consistent but culpable. That meant a distinct re-assessment of priority sets, and the ability to define tasks in a framework I was capable not only of hitting but exceeding. It has helped enormously that this has also happened on the leisure side of my life: cycling and weightlifting are both contributing to an increase in mental capacity.
There are other people who have helped me too, and their capacity to fit together and unlock parts of my subconscious has been almost poetic in combination. They say sometimes you don’t notice the influences in your life, but I’m grateful and happy to be able not only to spot those individuals but have them as examples to aspire to. I also have to credit a change in listening habits for the renaissance in creativity. Spotify is proving surprisingly fruitful and amazing by turns as a means to foster the expansion of my mind. I’m reading again, and have a selection of items that I’m looking forward to on Netflix.
It’s not all perfect, however, but when the storms come (as is unavoidable) they have become a great deal easier to weather than was ever previously the case. That’s not just because of mental and physical fortitude either. It’s a complex balance of so many things, which makes me both pleased and comforted that when it really mattered, and I needed to step up to the task, it happened. The next step, of course, is to move up into a new space and make the most of the opportunities that exist within it. That’s the plan for the rest of February, and I’m already rolling.
I’ll see you bright and early on Monday when we start again. Enjoy the weekend’s scheduled poetry.