Poetry Archive: Learning Curve

These are difficult times for me at present, as I attempt to increase my exercise workload and get confident enough to do a 50 mile cycling event in June. It’s not that far away, especially with the weather outside reminding me of the first time I went to the Eroica event in Derbyshire. That was horizontal rain and a muddy, horrible weekend. Last year was sunshine and riding in a 1950’s dress and skirt… I’m not sure what 2018 will bring but if I want to beat the 25 miles I managed then, I need to be more fit than I am now.

This needs a fundamental reorganisation of mental and physical capacity, and I am struggling. This poem is a reminder that I have an awful learning curve, but it will happen in the end…


Learning Curve

It begins very small
A scintilla of hope:
Growing quietly, within
Letting consciousness cope.

Take one step at a time
Don’t get hung up on style,
And the goal that you seek
Will be yours, in a while.

Learning methods, new skills
To consider and grasp:
Obsessing on details,
Instructions, far too fast.

Instead, take a moment,
An objective retreat:
Plan out the way forward
Mark this task to complete.

This journey won’t break you
But might challenge your soul:
Allow body some space,
Finally become whole.


 

Forget Myself

We are into Week Three of my drawing/comic strip adventures, with ACTUAL Progress breaking out. However, apart from the poetry this month, there has been no actual work on fiction work since the middle of December. I’m using a short story to properly debut the ‘serialised Twitter content’ that was pre-written a while ago. I need new material, and have the deadline of the end of the month to edit my NaNoWriMo novel. Should I be worried therefore that the only idea in my head right now is of no use to me whatsoever?

I know full well why brain is pushing for a sequel to my two Bond fanfics. This is the wish fulfilment that keeps me sane and happy, and did for long periods when Real Life did not go as planned. The problem is, of course, that fanfic doesn’t pay bills. It won’t get me noticed as a serious writer. Fortunately for me I think I’ve found the means to bypass the problems and get back on track, and that is what is happening this week. The central conceit that would have been used as plot in the fic is, on reflection, far too good to be wasted on someone else’s characters. I’ll be inventing my own plot therefore to go with the idea, and once that’s done it is time to leave the world of other people’s stories behind and finally produce my own.

The J Word will be serving a useful function in that regard in the months to come, I hope.

I’m hoping, sometime later in the year, to tell a story using the Comic Strip. To do that I need a) the right narrative and b) to be able to provide the elements required. That’s also the plan for Christmas gifts in 2018, to draw Infographics for everybody I know. With that long term objective in mind I cannot afford to let anything slide, especially the storytelling elements of my process. It means that it is time to get my brain out of mothballs and start pushing fiction to the forefront.

As with everything, I’ll keep you updated on progression as we go.

February Content :: Get It On

After six months of Patreon curation, I’ve begun to grasp that themes are really very useful for focussing the mind. Whether it be a Book of the Month or simply a strand of associative subjects, planning in advance is utterly essential not simply for cohesion. With February marking nine years of Warcraft blogging, I decided to take the easy route for inspiration this time around. This isn’t about romance, however. I’ll leave the hearts and flowers to others, my Month of Lurve is all about the stuff nobody talks about during daylight hours but still counts.

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Next month’s short story (serialised on Twitter and then reproduced here in complete form) is a cautionary tale based in an ‘alternative’ England where it is men who are considered as both fairer and weaker sex. Ignoring both tradition and dress codes in a show of rebellion, two lovers decide to build a better future for themselves in the most public manner possible… plus there’ll be the regular weekly selection of Micropoetry and Haiku on a number of subjects relevant to relationships in the 21st Century. I also have some other ideas, and if time permits there may be some erotic fiction on offer.

Well, we all know that’s how this works after dinner and a movie, right?

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With video and music streams to complement all this, I’m already rather excited about February’s schedule. What this announcement does is confirm that I’ll be working on the longer form of next month’s content starting today, thus maintaining a constant stream of TOP QUALITY GUBBINS from month to month. If this all works out I’ll also make time for the personal projects I wish to complete, and (hopefully) encourage more people to throw cash at me. I’m not gonna lie, this is the long term aim of all the hard work, and hopefully consistency will end up as its own reward.

Without further ado, let’s get to it.

Poetry Archive: Getting Better

This little set of poems was going to be longer, but I decided to keep it at four lines so I could go and do some more exercise instead. That process is beginning to unlock parts of my subconscious that have lain dormant for quite some time… and I’m beginning to see some really significant and tangible improvements to all parts of my life, not just the writing. As a result I’ll remember this short sequence as the one that began an important journey that’s making me happier than I’ve been in a while.

I’d expect to see more exercise related poetry as a result via Twitter next week.


Getting Better

It isn’t just sickness
At this time of year
Perennial illness
Returning us here.

It’s knowing potential
For moving life on,
Don’t be reverential
Keep up what’s begun.

No need for appeasing
The masses online:
Forget all that pleasing
It’s not worth your time.

Instead why not focus
Making yourself well:
No more hocus pocus
Let them go to Hell.

It’s time to get better
Look only ahead
Become a trend setter,
Put self-doubt to bed.


Seconds Out

I made it through an entire week of content. I’m not sure whether I should celebrate or not, because this means I am now obliged to do the same for the next 51 weeks, and that might be a bit of a stretch… except the process of organising myself is already reaping unexpected rewards. Instead of feeling sorry for myself whilst unwell yesterday there was a bike ride and some really satisfying application of energy to improving the World around me. All that stuff about individuals being unable to change their circumstance is only true to a point.

The more sharp-eyed amongst you will notice that there’s now a page dedicated to my poetry (in graphic format) which started to appear on Twitter in the second half of 2017. I’m hoping to write at least a couple of these a month for 2018, and when they get an airing on Social media you can expect to see them archived here shortly afterwards. I hope at some point to shove all of these together in an e-book or some kind of more formal presentation format, but don’t hold your breath on that.

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After that, this week is about getting ahead on posting and making some clear air for editing and back-end work. That means you may not see me about as much on Social media but you can rest assured I’ll still be around, working hard. I am looking forward to sharing with you what is coming up for February too, which I’ll be revealing this time next week.

For now, it is on with the grind.

Poetry Archive :: The Dawning of New Day

I’m kicking off 2018 with a series of poems around the theme of regrowth and regeneration. Yoga has been an important part of my life since I first learnt the basics after the birth of my son, so that’s coming up for eighteen years ago. I’ve returned to the ideas of meditation and inner focus however after my experiences with Mindfulness, and this year there’s a plan forming to combine the two, possibly with a return to a formal class.

As I consider the possibilities available, here’s my thoughts on how the start of the day is my favourite time, and that the sunrise (when I get to see it) has become a very powerful motivator.


The Dawning of New Day

Feet placed firmly, mat warmth
Flows through willing body.
Tiredness slowly transformed,
Sun salutes, not shoddy.
The dawning of new day,
Blows night time fears away.

Sit quietly with green tea
Exhale deep tensions out,
Allow tautness to flee:
Relaxing without doubt.
The dawning of new day,
My favourite place to stay.

Alone I am complete
Distractions disappear:
Night terrors to defeat
Strength grows, direction clear.
The dawning of new day,
Confidence will allay.

Each day positions learnt
Are easier to hold
Effort, calories burnt
Extending limbs, now bold.
The dawning of new day,
Weakness will not betray.

From warrior to tree
The cobra and canoe,
This discipline, you see
Builds certainty that’s true.
The dawning of new day,
Ancient, yogic ballet.

Moving On Up

As was the case in 2017, every Thursday for the next 52 weeks I will focus on writing plus getting both old and new projects finished and started. It seems an appropriate moment therefore to put up a list of intent for January, that we can revisit in four weeks to see how I did. Also, saying all this stuff  ‘in public’ makes it more likely to happen, as I discovered (rather usefully) last year. Most importantly of all, I GET TO DO A SWANKY GRAPHIC 😀

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IN PROGRESS

NaNoWriMo Novel (Revision Stage): I’ve reset my Goal tracker to start from today at 9am. We’ll see how much I can get done. I’d like to have it in a workable form by the end of the month and this is not an unrealistic goal.

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Poetry and Haiku for January: This week’s poetry was all produced ahead of publication, a habit I fell out of towards the back end of last year, for various reasons. The plan is to try and have the two scheduled pieces for Twitter written and ‘complete’ well before Friday, and then schedule today the publication of both pieces to this site across the weekend. This then upgrades the site to having content for 365 days a year, which has been my goal since at least the latter part of 2016. It took me this long to get arse in gear, but is totally worth the effort.

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February Planning: It’s the Month of Love coming up, with Time to Talk day scheduled for February 1st. This means subject matters will Love Poetry, Erotica, Depression and Self Care. This seems to me a decent combination of bases to cover, all of which I can write about with a measure of confidence. Also, apropos of nothing at all, I’ll have been writing my Warcraft blog for nine years next month. Might have to do summat about that…


So, that’s the plan, except I’ll be honest and admit I will be nipping for a quick kip once I’ve written my blogs for the day. I’m carrying some kind of throat/ear based virus/infection thing and I’d really like to stop it getting any worse than it is, so a brief break to recharge the batteries is in order…